This is a quick random dream but I felt it’s worth documenting..
Yesterday, I been introduced to my friend’s cousin and wow, what a hottie! We had picked him up from the bar of where he worked and taken him home while listening to Ke$ha on a cd. After shaking his hand good-bye and looking into his eyes for a few seconds, my night began.
I tossed and turned for a good hour with my brain on the go and not allowing any shut eye. Eventually once I fell asleep, it began. Matt and I were having a movie or game night along with his new boyfriend, and Matt’s cousin popped over for a visit to join us. Somewhere in the course of the night, his cousin who we will call Chad, had this sarcastic attitude that for whatever reason turned me on. The dream continued with us sitting on the couch and me leaning in to kiss him, then us holding hands, and cuddling while watching whatever movie was on. Matt and I were holding our boys while all four of us were sitting on the couch with Matt and I being ”the men” of the relationship, which is wierd for me in general, but that’s another story. Somewhere in that dream mixed with Chad, there was this other guy that I had met. We’ll call him Alex. It was like I was living two dimensions. One of them consisting of Chad and I starting this relationship out of no where, and the other with Alex, but with Alex, it was more sexual, but a very, very romantic sexual. Wierd! Maybe that was me compensating for what the other relationship might lack or what showing what I may be missing in my own life. No, I don’t mean sex, that’s not the issue, I mean, emotions. Maybe I want it so badly that the only way I seem to get it from those I want it from is to imagin it in my dreams. And to be honest, I’ll never be with any of these two. What an overall sad story.. well, sort of!
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